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Settlement and such is next week and I still packing to do
plus a million things to do at the new place.

So Friday is probably my last day online for a few weeks, probably
a month. Just a heads up:w00t:

Yes, we all know Copic is king, but this video made my brain feel good.
I was going to print out a diploma after watching it.
:iconbaylee-jae: created the video.





Monsters this week:nuu:


to play by tonysandoval Tongue Twister by AustenMengler

~~guess who's getting ready for the sacrifice??~~ by tiffanyturrill
 Inferos Custos by MIKECORRIERO



Today I had the last round of packing pulled out of my head.

It was replaced with a thick Vaseline-like goo that is going
to help continue the healing process, fight infection, and
finish off my recovery from surgery.
It's also going to ooze out of my head for three weeks:meow:

It's thick and sticky and the doc made sure he packed in as much as he could.
He was using his finger to push in goo once the cavity was filled so
he could get more in.

It feels like I have a pair of wet socks in my head.

At least he's not shoving more strips of absorbent material in, because
that sucked a lot.:rage:

Hearing test in two weeks.

Oh yeah, the pollen is falling like snow this week.
I had to use the hose on the driveway twice because
it coats the cement, the outdoor furniture, the mail box, everything.

The trees are trying to kill us!:paranoid:

All related to:
Surgery BullshitSo I got unwrapped today and got all the details
from the doctor.
It wasn't good.
In fact it's pretty much the opposite of what I was expecting.
Real simple. In 2013 I had a tumor removed from my
inner ear. It wrecked my hearing.
Then I had a post op infection that lasted almost 3 full months.
After that I had to let the stuff heal and then a follow up
surgery was supposed to reconstruct as much of my hearing
as possible. That was delayed because my Dad passed away
and then my appendix exploded and had to be removed.
Yesterday when I was opened up the doctor found a new
tumor and the planned reconstruction got turned into a demolition.
That's why surgery was an hour longer then expected and
probably why I was in so much pain in recovery.
Originally surgery was supposed to be 3 to 4 hours but
ended up being right around 5. Plus an hour+ in recovery.
It was pretty bad so they gave me something, I dunno what, that
was really strong and had me still feeling the effects a good
seven hours l
This is what it feels like....The doctor's visit
http://forum.deviantart.com/community/complaints/2073056/

So the shoe lace of pain....it's all noodled in my head mainly.
Some of it is on the outside in the ear canal.
Part of the string has dried to the top of the canal. The blood
scabbed up.
Ever pull a stuck zipper lose?
That ripping grinding noise?
Yeah, that's kind of what it was like when the doctor
started to pull the stuck part but it was my flesh not a zipper
and I could hear it and feel it.
I know, awesome right!
But that wasn't even the worst part, it was just an hors-d'oeuvre.
Because after that he was pulling the rest of the strip
out of my head. That meant pulling any stuck parts inside
lose while also allowing cool fresh air to rush inside to flow
all over the raw meat within.
It was a searing hot painful oven in there. It was great.
The pain killer I took 20 or so minutes ago really didn't
take any edge off of that. I should have just eaten




Princess Mononoke Sketch by JadeMere     Winter Fire by Leonid Afremov by Leonidafremov

Starry Starry Night by armieraine
The Special Bus by froggynaan

I think I had a drug induced dream last night.

I still have the packing in my head. It's still super annoying.
Last night was especially aggravating so I took a
Percocet to help me get to sleep. It does the job.



So I'm in some city using public transit, a bus, to get to
comic book convention but the driver got lost and we
ended up in downtown.

The driver got lost because no one trains to go downtown.

Downtown is a dead zone, no one goes there, not even rats
or cockroaches.

The reason? It's really boring downtown. So boring in fact
that everyone who worked there died from boredom one
day. Everyone int he area just got so bored they dropped.
Including a school bus full of poor kids from the inner city.

That got the fake civil rights people in an uproar. Social
justice warriors saturated the media with nonsense about
how the kids were mistreated and murdered all
the while conveniently skipping over the fact that everyone
downtown died.

Riots ensued. The rioters and protesters marched on downtown
to "show" the city and the world they won't be ignored.

They all promptly died. Because downtown was still hella boring.

The city was quiet and peaceful. Crime rates dropped to unimaginable
historic lows unseen in modern history in the civilized world.

The internet was chill too. No one was waging flame wars, doxxing
charity heads, or spinning conspiracy theories.

All the dummies were dead. And that was a problem.

No one wanted to clean up the mounds of dead rioters. So the
city trained a legion of kids with downs syndrome to go in and do it.
The scientific thinking was the kids would be immune to downtown's
boring nature.

The kids were outfitted with hockey helmets, fanny packs, and oven mitts.
Their fanny packs had two days worth of candy rations, Spongebob
band aids, and a can of spray cheese.

The idea was a success, it worked. But there was a problem. The
kids didn't bring out the dead. Instead they ate the bodies and
took over the subway tunnels forming their own society.

Rumor has it they've achieved utopia. Cold fusion energy, zero
waste industry, true equality for all, and the perfect paella.

Downtown was empty and creepy. Someone thought it would
be good to have bus tours of downtown. All the tourists died.
The kids harvested the bodies.

So we got stranded inside the perimeter of downtown and
needed to get out fast before panic turned to boredom and we died.

We got to a train station to look at the map for the surest route out.

The 'you are here' icon was represented by a red golf ball.

Someone in the group said that was unusual and that most maps
used a star or a white dot. Another person said "It can't always
be about the whites" and then an old lady in the back said she
didn't like golf and that using the red golf ball icon to represent
her was racist and oppressive.

I was going to turn around and stomp her head in but I woke up.
It was like 4am

Badge - TLDR by dizziness
I woke up mad at a fake old lady in a bizarre dream:grump:







 
Because being dizzy and skurd isn't enough!
You must be dizzy, skurd, AND cold!

You know in Russia if you fall off the building they just
scoop you up with a shovel and put the remains in the garbage.:P




She's hot and then I realized she's making words too! Amazing.
I like her idea for replacing the 'I need feminism' signs with 'I need therapy':bucktooth:




Eye Tattoo- Pat by ZeplinQueen  Shadow Fall by JadeMere  Hospital by Ekkoberry
Okay first off, agar.io is down while the guy migrates to
new servers.:rage:

Second....this.....



Dude is 43 stories in the air with no safety equipment.:omfg:
I've been playing agar.io/ a lot
I've gotten as high as 3 (for like 8 seconds) and 4th

It's a fun game to pass the time.
I haven't been feeling well the last few days so
zoning out watching colored balls eat each other is
enough of a distraction.

I did the doctor visit thing and got more new packing
Much fun so wow

And it got even better because after torturing me and
replacing the packing I found out that after I get a hearing test to
see how far reduced my hearing is I am probably going to
see another specialist because my options for a hearing aid
are reduced because of the amount of damage the recent tumor did.

There is an 85-90% chance that I am going to require another surgery
to implant a titanium screw in my head. Yup. Titanium screw.

It's for something called a bone anchored hearing aid.
www.ent.uci.edu/clinical-speci…
I've been playing this game for over an hour now:eager:

agar.io/

It's crazy dumb but a ton of fun
I almost got close to being ranked on the screen!

Don't get stuck in the corners!:omfg:
The doctor's visit
forum.deviantart.com/community…

AAAAA!!!!!! by flutterguy317


So the shoe lace of pain....it's all noodled in my head mainly.
Some of it is on the outside in the ear canal.
Part of the string has dried to the top of the canal. The blood
scabbed up.

Ever pull a stuck zipper lose?
That ripping grinding noise?
Yeah, that's kind of what it was like when the doctor
started to pull the stuck part but it was my flesh not a zipper
and I could hear it and feel it.
I know, awesome right!

But that wasn't even the worst part, it was just an hors-d'oeuvre.

Because after that he was pulling the rest of the strip
out of my head. That meant pulling any stuck parts inside
lose while also allowing cool fresh air to rush inside to flow
all over the raw meat within.

It was a searing hot painful oven in there. It was great.
The pain killer I took 20 or so minutes ago really didn't
take any edge off of that. I should have just eaten
a bag of Skittles.

The strip looked like a blood soaked noodle with black specks
and some slime.

That's not even the worst part even though it hurt way more
then having the first dried stuck part pulled free at the
beginning.

Pulling out the noodle of misery allowed blood and stuff to
start pooling in my head. So the doctor vacuumed that out.
If you've never had your ear vacuumed you'll never understand
the pain.
It's incredibly loud and 100% unfun. The pressure change alone
sucks but it's like explosions in your head plus the suction.

Now we're up to the good stuff. The strip is out, I've been
vacuumed, and the new strip is ready to go in.

Have you ever had one of those rake-like bruise-cuts?
You know, the bruise with the straight line cuts in it?
I think you get them from falling on cement or sliding
on really bad carpet.

So if you've ever had one of those and cleaned it with
peroxide or alcohol you know that wonderful
feeling. Just add a good hard slap on top of that to
really drive home the sensation.

Take that pain and condense it into an area smaller
then a postage stamp and put that pain inside your head
where your eardrum used to be.

Now have that pain explode in you eight to ten times.
Because that's how many times the forceps were used
to push the new strip inside my head.
That's the part that really had me 'uncomfortable'.
At that point your entire existence is "I have to get
home to take another pill."
I'm bringing them with me next time

The icing on the cake was the finishing move where the doctor
had to hold my head with one hand and using a single finger
push the absorbent strip firmly in my head. You know, to make
sure he did a good job or something.


vomit bag avatar by 0-4

A cotton patch was placed over the ear because I
was oozing blood and I was allowed to go home.


I get to do this again two more times in the next two weeks.



Related to:

Surgery BullshitSo I got unwrapped today and got all the details
from the doctor.
It wasn't good.
In fact it's pretty much the opposite of what I was expecting.
Real simple. In 2013 I had a tumor removed from my
inner ear. It wrecked my hearing.
Then I had a post op infection that lasted almost 3 full months.
After that I had to let the stuff heal and then a follow up
surgery was supposed to reconstruct as much of my hearing
as possible. That was delayed because my Dad passed away
and then my appendix exploded and had to be removed.
Yesterday when I was opened up the doctor found a new
tumor and the planned reconstruction got turned into a demolition.
That's why surgery was an hour longer then expected and
probably why I was in so much pain in recovery.
Originally surgery was supposed to be 3 to 4 hours but
ended up being right around 5. Plus an hour+ in recovery.
It was pretty bad so they gave me something, I dunno what, that
was really strong and had me still feeling the effects a good
seven hours l
So I got unwrapped today and got all the details
from the doctor.
It wasn't good.
In fact it's pretty much the opposite of what I was expecting.

Real simple. In 2013 I had a tumor removed from my
inner ear. It wrecked my hearing.
Then I had a post op infection that lasted almost 3 full months.

After that I had to let the stuff heal and then a follow up
surgery was supposed to reconstruct as much of my hearing
as possible. That was delayed because my Dad passed away
and then my appendix exploded and had to be removed.

Yesterday when I was opened up the doctor found a new
tumor and the planned reconstruction got turned into a demolition.
That's why surgery was an hour longer then expected and
probably why I was in so much pain in recovery.

Originally surgery was supposed to be 3 to 4 hours but
ended up being right around 5. Plus an hour+ in recovery.

It was pretty bad so they gave me something, I dunno what, that
was really strong and had me still feeling the effects a good
seven hours later.

It wasn't morphine, I've had that before. Morphine is a warm
feeling that rolls over you and chills everything out.
That wouldn't have worked yesterday.
Whatever I got numbed everything and made me hella groggy.
The searing hot pulsing pain inside my head literally disappeared
in a few seconds and then I was in another dimension for hours.

In June I'm having a hearing test and I'll probably be determined
legally deaf (if I want a handicap permit for parking).

I will 100% need a hearing aid now and there is the prospect
of yet another surgery in September/October to make sure
the tumor is gone, my balance is preserved, and limited
reconstruction maybe happens.

I don't have an eardrum now. That thin membrane is gone.
I might be able to get a reconstructed one, but that
remains to be seen. Recovery and a future scan will
determine if that's possible.
I lost many of the bones that are part of the hearing
system and a certain amount of skull was carved out
because it was diseased.
Basically what was once a hearing organ is now going
to be empty space.

What's even moar funner is the fact that my ear cavity is
full of absorbent material. Like 2 or 3 inches inside my head.
That gets pulled out of my head AND new material gets put in.

My doctor told me to take a pain pill 10 minutes before arriving
because it's not going to be fun.:faint:
It gets better too. I have to do it three times over the next three
weeks.

Total recovery is like 3 months as long as I don't get any
infections.

So yeah. That's my fucked up problem and there goes my entire
summer. I have a surgery planned for the other ear in June/July.

Since I can't hear I really can't waste time watching movies on
Netflix. I'm not allowed to do any lifting or moving. I can't get
wet. I can't bend over. It's just too much fun:happybounce:


Surgery Aftermaff by EbolaBears
Surgery Aftermaff 2 by EbolaBears
It's 1am
I sorta kinda just woke up
i am going back to bed
I am using spellcheck because the keyboard keeps moving:P

surgery was supposed to be 3 to 4 hours
i think it ended up being almost 5
I see the doctor in like 14 hours to get unwrapped
so I'll find out all the gory details

i am so high:rofl:


Drunk by tinoplex
Silent Hill 01 by iiRainbowCake

So I got the call.
I go in at 10:30am
I'll be under the knife by 11:30
Surgery is 3 to 4 hours if everything is easy.
Recovery is an hour
If recovery is okay I get to leave.
If I am bleeding, in super pain, or crazy dizzy
I have to stay overnight (at least).

So basically if it all goes good I'll
leave by 6pm and be home in time to watch
the start of the hockey playoffs:bucktooth:

Silent Hill Nurse by john8859  Silent Hill movie nurse by Agacross

I won't be online tomorrow because...drugs.

Thursday I go back to the doctor to get my head
unwrapped and get the incision site inspected.

Then I'll probably check in here and other online places
if I am awake enough to remember typing.:w00t:

Silent Hill Nurse by shygay
I've been a fan of Slayer since reign in Blood was released.
I bought it new on cassette the week it came out.
If you're too young to remember cassettes Google it.

But I think I found something even more hardcore.



I don't know what's worse, the adult men dressed like tools playing instruments
in the background or the crowd of adults jumping to two little girls
lip synching......

Surgery

Surgery on Weds.
Don't know the time yet but it's going to suck.
I'll be back on by Friday if I am not dead.


Elisa Lam's death is still an unsolved case.
The video is still spooky as hell.
It gets weirdest when she's making the hand movements
and then proceeds to push every button in the
elevator.
Then she leaves and the door opens and closes a
few times.




Her Tumblr
It's kinda creepy to see her last entries knowing
that something bad happened.
nouvelle-nouveau.tumblr.com/au…


Oppidum - Thuribulum Crucible by TomScholes

700 by azammii

Kira by art0fCK

Forest girl by Daiyou-Uonome
kotaku.com/you-can-play-pac-ma…

Probably one day only. Play while you can.:P


I've removed the iodine and blood stains:w00t:
The murder scene is now clear.:mwahaha:

Pretty nice looking web series/comic
hingescomic.blogspot.com/

Since I am limited in what I can and cannot do I
have been reading things online a lot like a lot a lot..:meow:

On mute by Detroit-Magpie


GAMES!!
www.kongregate.com/games/rete/…
www.godswillbewatching.com/




Epic Pills of Epic Happiness by HappehPills

Percocet
It makes me a whore with a keyboard.:icontyperhappyplz:

I take one and 40 minutes later I am replying
to comments on DA and I'm not even sure
I'm paying attention to what I'm posting:rofl:

I'm pretty sure I carried a conversation across
three replies to two people who were not involved in
the conversation.:bucktooth:
Ooops.

Having a healing incision in the middle of your abdomen
sucks for two reasons.
First, it hurts and is really uncomfortable.
Second, your range of motion is so limited you
really can't do anything besides sit and stand and
even that sucks.

I can feel the area where my appendix used to be.
It feels weird. I guess that's healing sensation.

I have two abscess drill holes in my belly and they
kept leaking a tiny spot of blood over the course
of the day/night.
The nurse said that's ok. I think she's out to get
me.:paranoid:

pills by DiMsHiK
Welcome to the surgery by Matthias-Haker

Tomorrow (or 10 1/2 hours away)
I have to be at the hospital at 6am for a 7:30am surgery:faint:
I should be out of recovery and probably on my
way home at 10am.

The good news is I'll be home nice and early to do
absolutely nothing. There's not even a hockey game on
that I'd want to watch. So it's bad-movies-on-Netflix-nite.

If you want to see the gory details just You Tube an appendectomy.
They have a few on there. Bring popcorn!

So if I never come back it's because I'm dead:w00t:

GO HERE!
Good stories with the bears you love
godxiliary.com/alienvspooh/
godxiliary.com/thepoohing/

DO THIS!
I played with the drums for two hours!
html5drummachine.com/


Last Meal by Koltov Nani by Cryophase

OLD DOUBLE Cover by toniinfante Doc Unknown #4 Cover by ryancody


Can you imagine falling into that? :omfg:
and the nurse said by G-Lulu

So my first surgery, the appendix, is the 24th of
March.
The surgery that was postponed because of the
appendix is now scheduled for 2 1/2 weeks later.:faint:
Then three weeks after that I move.
Or that's the plan for now:bucktooth:


Oh yeah, it's raining ice and tomorrow I
get 4 to 8 inches of snow.
:iconimdeadplz:

It's not as funny as the chick makes it out to be
but the puppy is entertaining.
surgery tools by phoelixde

I found out my surgery for the suicidal appendix
is March 24th:faint:

Also I am probably going to delete my stacks
of messages etc...because I was gone for like
three and a half weeks and I'm over 8.5k messages
and deviations after answering 200 a night for
three nights. I simply cannot catch up.

I'll answer some tonight and then *poof*
the rest have to go, I can't do it.

I am moving the last week of April so that
is probably another two weeks of message
piling.:rage:
The good news is I'll have space to set up
the scanner:w00t:
Right now I have to pull it off a shelf and sit
the scanner on a chair to plug it in and scan
items. Not fun.
I should find the discs...:paranoid:

Morad and sophie by JeanLaine